Well this sucked…. I’ve made it through my first week of not smoking, but I woke up this morning with cravings that are worse than day 1. WTH? Why am I freakin out like this? You’d think that these would go away… Not sit here and eat at me and drive me nuts.
Anyway… Hope everybody had a good weekend. I did…
Went to the doctor Friday about my BP… He says to monitor it every day for the next 6 weeks and then come back… It wasn’t too high… looks like the things I’ve cut out is doing me some good. I guess we’ll see.
OK…. Sunday mornings I tend to be the first one up… So anyways… I was looking around on the computer and thanks to Alldumb.com I found an intense game…. Kinda like the old breakout, but a lot more confusing…. Check it out: Right Here
Yesterday, I threw out the last couple of cigarettes I had… so no more waking up and smoking. So today I’ve been completely smoke free. Woohooooo!
But I’m feeling pretty crappy anyways… So much so that I finally broke down and made a doctors appointment to go get my blood pressure checked. It’s been pretty high every time I’ve checked it at the store and my chiropractor and my doctor have both commented on it. So we’ll see what happens there.
I just really hope they don’t decide to draw blood… I am such a wuss when it comes to needles… I tend to pass out or get sick. Joy o joy….
Anyways… I’m glad it’s Friday at least!
Not too much to add to my quitting story… it’s going same ol same ol….
I got up, smoked about a quarter of one… got disgusted by it and went on like usual….
Last night, I did end up taking off my patch and smoking about half of one. The stress level was up a bit.
I really need to find some new stress relief outlet.
Anyway… plodding along with my patch…. I think I’ll throw away the rest of the pack i still have laying around…. might as well remove the temptation.
For some reason, I convince myself that I should go smoke just one cigarette when I wake up…. I’ll lay in bed when I wake up and justify it, then I’ll get up and go do it. As you may have guessed…. I went and smoked one this morning again. Only got thru half of it today… It was pretty gross.
The other thing that was pretty disgusting this morning was the brown ball of who-knows-what that I hacked up this morning… What is that crap that’s in my lungs????
I am a non-smoker.
Yesterday went really well… I even had a bit of stress and didn’t go smoke or freak out too bad because I didn’t have one. Today hasn’t been too bad either.
Sure… I’ll sit here and think that it would be so much easier just to keep smoking, but I don’t think I want to do that. Today, I get my daughter after school and let her know that I quit. She will be thrilled! She asked us to quit for her birthday this year.,.. said that’s all she wanted. That in itself was my inspiration to go thru with it- How could you say no to such a request from such an angel?
Anyway… My nephew moved out yesterday and I am now planning on building an N-scale empire in the room he just vacated. This will give me something to do to keep me occupied and give me something to do with the money I am now saving.
Wish me luck on continued success!